As this year draws to a close, I can’t help but be introspective and reflective — as I try to determine what this year felt like. Recounting all of the ways I wish I had showed up for myself, but refusing to forget all the ways I did. Was this year hard, sad, transformative, painful?
In the past few years, I’ve discovered so many parts of myself that made me soar in ways I never thought possible. I also discovered parts of myself that are responsible for a plateau, after having gone through so many changes both good and bad. It’s giving transformative mamas, if I do say so myself. This year, I believe I learned the most though. For which I am so thankful for.
I experienced things that were foreign to me.
Things that hurt me.
Changed me.
Made me smile.
Brought me to tears…
I traveled alone and found a peace I’ve never known before. Almost loves came and went. Family stayed and thrived. Lost loved ones were remembered. I remained a part of the land of the living. In today’s world the latter should be celebrated as often as humanly possible because life… life isn’t guaranteed to anyone or anything.
It’s through my appreciation for life and reflection that I was able to determine what 2021 felt like… finally.
Y’all 2021 felt mostly transformative.
Transformative in that I faced so many fears and challenged notions that were intent on holding me back.
I plan to take that with me in the new year. Challenging notions that are intent on holding me back that is and I implore you all to do the same.
I want so badly (as I’m sure we all do), for the new year to be extraordinary. To not feel that I haven’t grown or achieved accomplishments that differ from past years. I want so badly to be everything I need to be for the woman God intends I evolve into. I want so badly to soar. & if I have to plateau only do so for a short while. I want so badly to travel and celebrate how beautiful the world is. I want so badly to find the connection that will make all past connections seem so minimal in nature. & yet, I’ve realized that I want to live my very best single life in the coming year. Yes. I want to thrive in my own orbit. To formulate the most beautiful connection with myself. I want so badly to share my writing with the world. I want to badly to do so much and God willing I will.
Yes, this year was transformative — but next year? Next year will change everything. Next year will change the tide and turn the tables.
The power of the tongue y’all. It’s a powerful thing.
As I prepare to sign off so that y’all are able to celebrate more life, more joy, more success, and good health while ringing in the new year — I wish to leave you all with this:
May this new year be the best year of your life. One that shakes the table and turns the tide. One that by the end of it leaves you feeling content and at peace with yourself. Understanding that you are and have always been the most important person in your life. Trusting that as you work towards all that you want, you take time to stop and celebrate all that you currently have. May your wins be bountiful and your losses be minimal.
See you in the new year my loves.
With Love,
Thelms
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